Monday, February 24, 2014

"calling it hate is hating that I don't accept gay people"


As happens so many times on this earth, I came across something completely ignorant (I've been told I overuse that word, however, it could just seem that way because there is such an abundance of it) and I just couldn't keep my fingers shut up about it.
Lately, I have been trying to see both sides to an issue and think about the effectiveness, or lack there of, of my knee jerk reactions. It never does any good insulting a person because that won't make them want to hear or accept anything that I have to say. Insults are a quick go-to for someone lacking control. Similar to a person throwing a punch because they can't handle an uncomfortable social interaction.
Listen to me my high horse. I have an abundance of flaws and ignorances myself. I can be a smug know-it-all when really I'm just a know-something-about-that-and-have-an-opinion kind of person. Let's just say I don't have a soap box, but I borrow one from time to time.
Yesterday I was scrolling along Facebook and saw a post that left me a bit conflicted. I'll post it below:

I'm done being quiet. If you are gay, stop whining and complaining because people don't like your CHOICES. I am a Christian and believe that it is incredibly wrong but like I said that's your choice. If you keep posting gay Crap I will simply delete you from my profile. I don't care if you want to call it hate. In reality, calling it hate, is hating that I don't accept gay people. I just read some Crap about gaytm's (atm's that have had a rainbow gay pride makeover) Seriously, what would happen if we posted scriptures from the Bible or crosses all over atm's. If we are going to accept people for who they are, then stop freaking when u see a kid with a bible in a public school, he just might be the only one praying for that school.

I get annoyed by things. Sometimes I get in one of those bitter moods where I'm just like "Ulgh, I'm so sick of seeing this or that" and really it's an over-reaction. It doesn't mean there is anything wrong with "this or that", it just means that I'm in a pissy mood and I attached all of my anger towards something that I'm sick of seeing or whatever. There isn't a perfect science to people. Ridiculous transferences can take place at any time. We get annoyed. We get angry. We get bruised egos. We act like babies using big words. I've been guilty of it plenty of times.
So I took a moment to register that's what this person must be feeling. I also thought "This person seems to be capable of thought and reasoning, they've made it this far and He claims to be a Christian. If I respect his point of view, why wouldn't he at least hear or accept that mine exists."
Then I thought "Hmmm, maybe I don't want to stir it up. Maybe I should just walk away." However, I later thought about indifference. In certain situations, allowing something to occur is just as damaging as doing it. So I decided to write back.

I began with saying something along the lines of " Sorry you're frustrated. Hopefully you feel better now that you've vented" I then went on to say that "I'm sure you know that not all gays are whiny and complaining in-your-face and flamboyant about their issues, just like not all Christians are gay hating, bully Republicans. However, I'm sure that the gay community wouldn't mind one bit if you posted a bunch of scripture from the bible like this: ..."
And then I went on to post scripture of love, tolerance, not judging others, and some that could even support the gay lifestyle. I didn't do this to "get in his face" or anything. It was because I thought he, claiming to be a Christian, would recognize these parts of the scripture and reconsider his hate.

If I wanted to be a bitch about it I could have attacked him for not doing research that the "GayTMs" are specifically for a celebration at a specific location, it's not like they are everywhere.  I could also  point out that the connection between GayTMs and Prayer in school is..what? What the hell is that? And let's not get started on the "It's a choice" thing.

I left it gentle.

His response was to delete my comment and just keep a string of comments from all of those giving him kudos for speaking up.
My first knee-jerk reaction was to type my comment again and again and flood his page with Gay and Lesbian pride and support memes. However, that's just fighting ignorance with ignorance or intolerance with intolerance. I'm not part of a movement or anything. I'm not committed to a cause. I'm a regular person, consumed in my own shit. However, this experience made me think a little more about the shaping of the LGBT community.
This person had deleted everything I had to say, as is his right. However, what does that say?
For one it says that (to him) whatever I had to say was wrong, or wasn't worth hearing, or I wasn't worth hearing, or I was right and he had no way to refute it so he just pretended it didn't exist. Hell, maybe it was all of the above. His solution was to insult and avoid.
Now, I'm sure the gay community has it's fair share of assholes and douchebags, just like every other group of people out there. However, I'm mostly going to be talking about my perspective on the group as a culture.

As individuals and as a culture, LGBTs have made an existence while emerging from those circumstances. Obviously, I'm not comparing my facebook comment to a person's existence. I mean those were the reactions to them in everyday life just for existing. Just for being. They were treated as my deleted comment. Deletable, ignorable, wrong. It must take so much work and pain and strength to exist in a world with so many people who don't think you should be you. I get some shit from time to time, but it's not like there are people out there protesting about that single white woman dating that single white man. There aren't these ridiculous circumstances and roadblocks preventing me from just doing what I do.
I think it's a beautiful thing to see how the community has grown through all of those everyday obstacles, and around them, and eventually, above them. It seems such a simple and obvious concept, like another underdog type of story, but it's so much more complex then "misfits Vs Cool Kids".  These are individuals who overcame so many things to actually create a culture. The people who come together to make up the LGBT community have their own unique journeys and it forms a sort of living mosaic art piece.
While that is beautiful, it must also be exhausting sometimes.

And all of that to still encounter narrow minded haters Every.Damn.Day.
It bothers me when other people can't see things like I do and in a way that makes me just as bad as them, I suppose. It's the hypocrite calling the hypocrite a hypocrite. I want to be all Zen and pretend I'm way cooler than I am, and "Hey you can have your hate and I'm sitting on the side of Peace and love" and self-righteous blah blah. I would like to be that person and let the haters hate and keep my opinions to myself and not want to force people to see my point of view.

 But fuck them, I'm right.






4 comments:

  1. "But fuck them, I'm right." I had to laugh at that. (Do you have to be such a potty mouth?) And sometimes that's all you can say, and then walk away. No sense wearing yourself out about it. I hadn't heard about GayTMs, but I imagine the money is just as green as anyone's. And christian symbols on a machine that vends money? That just seems wrong. But I'll just let it go at that. And who's freaking out over a kid bringing a bible to school? If a teacher did, that's a different matter. Okay, once again, I'm gonna let it go. Thanks for the post!

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  2. Wow, you follow some interesting people on facebook, Emz.

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  3. Well put Emma! I too was disgusted and feeling perplexed by that post this morning. I wasn't sure if I should commentary not. Especially since he is family. But u know what I think I am just going to delete him. Honestly I prefer not to have that kind of negativity on my Facebook page.

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